I feel as if this is a season of patience. A very long and tiring season of patience. After recently having to break away or disconnect from a relationship that didnt work out (or rather didnt even start :P) I guess I've been feeling kind of lonely. It almost seems so convenient that so many people are suddenly no longer single or have someone to pursue. I'm very happy for them, the problem isn't jealousy or envy. It's about having the discipline and patience to wait it out rather than rush into it. At numerous times i find I get tempted to go for the 'ohh.. what the heck, just stuff it' option and give in and settle for just about anyone. The other side of me begs to differ. Theres something else I have to do, I'm not ready just yet for a relationship lest i break a girl's heart in the process. God, are you calling me just to strengthen my resolve? to man up, get some guts and slug it out? I know I've felt my faith slipping a little lately as the mountains of impossible odds of studies just loom up ahead. But i pray revive my resolve, my trust in you and an undying faith. Give me the strength to persevere and to grit my teeth at the enemy's schemes. As you walk alongside me during my day, let people give you glory for the things you do through me big and small. I know I'm not alone, physically and spiritually. Its all for you lord. Even if i should be alone for the rest of my life, I know I'm never alone in you. I love you lord. In Jesus name', Amen.
"Why are you so downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in god,
For I will yet praise him,
my saviour and my God" - Psalms 42:5-6
