The end or the beginning of your destiny?..

Tomorrow (today) is the last day i see her, and probably know her as a friend. What do i do? i haven't thought up a proper goodbye speech? nor bought her any gifts? nor really done much to facilitate our friendship?

Its funny.. i started thinking of what to do for her when she was leaving at the start of this year. And over a whole year.. i still haven't been able to think up anything worthwhile. And now... I even have nothing to offer?

i guess after all that.. i can only come to one conclusion:

I think too hard

The best goodbye i can give her is what i have to say in my heart at that very moment [god has placed every word on my tongue before it even comes to being]

The best gift i can give her are all the fond memories shes had with us and blessings for the future to come. Other than that i have nothing else worthwhile.

The best friendship i can give is the one i currently have with her. Just being who i am, and living all that i am in jesus name. Not trying to fit the shoe or be someone that im not.

and often the easiest thing to do becomes the hardest thing. To say goodbye, let go and give it all to god. and not take it back but release all that she is from my thoughts. Perhaps one day, we'll be able to enjoy each others company in heaven.

This is my prayer tonight lord. Ive finally arrived at the fork in the road. Its time to say goodbye and walk the path you set out for me, and for her to walk the path set out for her. I dont know if these roads will ever meet again but i dont care. All i need to know is that im walking the right path set out for me lord. I pray you not only make that path clear but help me to press on, not turn back to past things but to press on into the things you have prepared for me. Hahah, lord it feels so unreal. That the day is finally here. I know that this path to say no to my will and yes to yours is gonna be hard. I pray you dont let me turn around, but take it one inch at a time. Lord break down all ive wanted, all my desires... You're all i want, You're all i need, You're everything, let that be the song that resonates and cries out from my inner most parts. All else doesnt matter. Bring me closer to where you are lord. I give up, i give up on doing life my own way. nothing i try and do is ever right. Show me the way [you are the way]. Show me the discernment and truth for my situation [you are the truth]. Show me where my life should be [You are the life]. I love you and i need you, all my days, every breath i take, Tomorrow. Let your will be done alone. Not mine. thank you lord god. Your awesome name, Jesus i pray Amen.