A time for everything.

I love how revelation comes in the most unexpected ways, whether it be from being inspired by illustrations of courageous leaders in Band of Brothers or through a horrifically unsensitized lego version of the bible or even while you're checking out what an amazing body your've been blessed with in the shower, you find that god speaks to you in such unique ways.

Coming off from my previous update, yesterday we had a speaker at church inspire us about overcoming the shaking in our lives

As you can see, the last couple of days hasnt been too good for me, and i guess thats whats been getting me down. Just allowing myself to be shaken by relationship problems.

I've noticed that sometimes we dont want to say certain things to uplift ourselves cause we believe we're just showing off or being proud. It was after i came out of the shower i realised what a god-breathed, god-glorifying body ive been blessed with, and well in the light of whats been happening lately, i guess that gave me if nothing then a little bit of confidence that the best is yet to come. That satan cant actually touch us unless we allow him to. And all this time I've been allowing the devil to get underneath my skin, trying to tear down what gods already built up in me. I believe that speaking goodness into your own life not just being positive but LITERALLY speaking god's word and promises into your own life has so much power in it that we underestimate.

Im gonna smile even when the going is tough, This is my declaration, my worship, that you still rule over my life even if all else fails, even if the only thing left for me in this world is to die, I just want you to know that im gonna die smiling :D!.

Ive pondered over that mindset quite a while now, whether im a hypocrite for thinking that, or if im being unreal to try and make things look ok when really its not. If anything i believe losing that mindset was for me to lose hope in everything. I guess thats when i realised that there are actually things to look forward to in my world, leading wildlife guys to become more than they are, studying a degree for a secure occupation just so u can be a blessing to whoever crosses your path, finding and bringing more strangers, friends into our church family, and more so, disciplining and breaking strongholds in my life that are holding my character, confidence, personality (etc.) back from the armourbearing soldier that you want me to be. And then and only then, when i put these things before my own desires, i believe thats when im ready to find someone whos heading the same direction, and praise god shes gonna be amazingly attractive, character, personality and physically-wise.

The way i see it now, is that theres a time for everything, this is a time to hold fast rather than give chase, a time for excellence rather than failure, a time for the harvest rather than drought, a time for others rather than myself. A time for this tulip to die while another pair begin to blossom. I think that in itself gives me the most hope, the most joy, that at least something beautiful is growing.. even if its not happening in my paddock for the time being ;D



Lord Jesus, i believe for all these things your've placed on my heart, This fire your've put in my heart to be more than i can be, i pray you fuel it for your glory. Never let it burn out. I thank you for this season lord, though its been painful, and probably more so in the future, I know that the best is yet to come, I pray more so, use me wherever you need me. Never let my prayers be "I'm just one man, what can i do?" but i pray from here on in, i hold onto a hope for the future, one thats been breathed and touched all over by you lord. Lets do things your way, the long way. I'm ready to go deeper with you, lord. After all, everything i am and can be up till now is by one man. That is by you lord Jesus. Thank you that i was called for a time like this lord.

Amen.